'To have faith does not mean we believe our Heavenly Father will always give us what we ask for when we ask for it...we can have faith that Christ has power to heal, that He is mindful of us, that He will strengthen us, and that if we endure well, we may qualify for eternal life.'
My faith will not result in my baby behaving less like a baby (which is whati really want), but I can pray for strength and understanding and wisdom.
'If Heavenly Father were to free us from our challenges simply because we asked, He would deny us the very experiences necessary for our salvation.'
THAT is a hard lesson to learn.
It Isn't a Sin to be Weak:
Sin: encouraged by Satan
Weakness: given to us by God
My weakness is PPD and anxiety
My Sin is giving in to anger
"As we are meek and faithful, God offers grace - not forgiveness - as the remedy for weakness. Grace is an enabling power from God to do what we cannot do on our own - the appropriate Godly remedy by which He can 'make weak things become strong.'"
What to do:
Ponder and Pray
'Saying a weakness is a sin can result in shame, blame, despair, and giving up on God's promises. Pondering and prayer help us make these distinctions.'
Prioritize:
'Because we are weak, we cannot make every needed change all at once. God can help us know where to begin.'
Plan:
'We need supports to help us make good choices even when we are tired or discouraged and plans for getting back on track when we slip.'
Patience:
'Patience is a manifestation of our faith in The Lord, gratitude for His confidence in us , and trust in His promises.'
'...limitations and inadequacy we are not sins and do not keep us from being clean and worthy of the Spirit.'
I'm a work in progress. And sometimes the progress seems very slow. I needed these lessons today. Every day . I'm trying SO hard to do what's right in the hopes that my weakness will get stronger. I need constant reminders. I've been feeling good since Sunday. Less dispairing. And I'm grateful for that. Monday evening was still hard. Yesterday was a great day and then the night was terrible (as far as a sleeping baby goes), but I'm trying to maintain perspective. It's hard. I need to stay SO close to The Lord moment by moment or a moment can catch me off guard and my weakness comes spilling out.
Things that help:
Getting out of the house - seeing that there is more to my life and this world than the four walls of my house...and sometimes the four walls of my closet! (Where Seth sleeps)
Scriptures and Prayers. Sometimes I feel bogged down in those things and I know that's Satan trying to stop me from doing what is right. Today is a good change up because I'm reading the Ensign and sometimes it helps to switch things up.
Going to the temple. I know it. For all 3 of my other children we lived at least 3 hours away from a temple and so going just didn't happen very often. Now there is a temple 25 minutes away...and only 9 minutes from my parents house. And I need to prioritize and get there more often . I always feel I can take on anything after I've been to the temple.
This time, I felt impressed that being a mother is what I am created to be, so of course it's going to be hard. And Satan will attack me there the most. So I have resolved to try harder.
Prayers of gratitude - it helps me see the good.
My most amazing husband - when he's here I can breath better. I always worry that I rely on him too much and as a result run the risk of losing him.
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